It’s currently Wednesday afternoon and I feel rough with a rotten virus 🙁
But by the time this is published it will be the night before our wedding, so I just wanted to put down a few words about how I’m feeling, mainly so I can look back on my blog in years to come and remember all the emotions.
So tomorrow, I marry the love of my life.
I guess comparatively speaking, we met fairly late on in life. I was 30 and Jay was 37. We met at a time when we’d both given up on love. Jay’s short marriage had broken up and I was feeling emotionally battered and bruised after a number of years of very bad experiences with men. On paper, we shouldn’t really have worked.
People told me to give myself space and time before getting involved with someone new – and I knew they probably right but I fell in love. Turns out getting involved was absolutely the right thing for both of us to do!
If you’re reading this at a time when your heart feels delicate or has been broken – please know that things can change! There are no rules when it comes to love. I don’t regret all the heartache I went through. I don’t even regret the person that tried to break my spirit. It all made me stronger and I value true love more than ever now.
It was always important for me to marry Jay. Whilst it’s not the be all and end all, it was just something I wanted. Hopefully he does to! Haha.
We ended up starting our family first mainly due to circumstances. And I’ll never regret that either. Our beautiful boy Noah will be there with us to celebrate tomorrow and that means the world to me. I just hope the toddler meltdowns aren’t too bad. I can live in hope, right?!
I honestly believe that our family unit is incredibly strong without a wedding ceremony – but tomorrow is a chance to show our friends and family and the world how much we love each other and to make it official.
Plus it’s my turn!
It’s my turn to be a bride. To wear a beautiful dress and walk up the aisle with my lovely Dad. I think there was a time when Dad thought he’d never get the chance!
I know whatever happens tomorrow, it will be an incredible day. Even if all my plans somehow go wrong, we will still get to make those vows and that’s what is important. And most importantly – I get to grow old with my favourite person in the world.
Right, now I just need to go and get well – hopefully by the time you read this I’ll be virus free! Wish me luck!
P.s – what do you think makes a happy marriage? Leave me a comment below x